Thursday, November 11, 2010
blahhh
what deity did i piss off over the last 34 years? did i not forward enough chain emails? geeez!! im so confused about the return of the ex. not sure what the draw is or why its so hard to let go, but its certainly not working to my advantage. i keep thinking maybe i should try and find a diversion, but the thought of being with anyone is kind of not what i want. nothing works out and im tired of putting myself out there. maybe if we could have an open and frank discussion about our situation or at least say a proper good bye maybe that would help but going on weeks and months of "i dont know" and "we'll see" is frustrating and im trying to be patient and err on the side of the benefit of the doubt but i need something to happen one way or the other. maybe *I* need to start that discussion. but every time i do i get the sense that im pushing. guh. there are sooooo many other issues going on at the same time but i dont want to hash it all up. i'm tired and confused and i feel like poop and i just need someone to come and sweep me off my feet and live hppily ever after.
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These are questions you need to ask yourself and be prepared to answer them completely truthfully. As hard as that may be.
ReplyDeleteIs the ex the capable person to sweep you off your feet?
Is your ex truly invested if all he can muster up is we'll see or I don't know? Does this mean he's just biding time to see if something/someone better comes along?
Does sitting around waiting make you happy?
Is feeling like you're pushing when you need to talk about your future something you want to endure for the rest of your life?
Is your ex going to help your future life be better than it is currently?
Is having him back in it going to make things easier in the long run for you or just appease you at the moment with not being single?
Are you willing to settle for the sake of settling?
Sorry, ask Lesley, I make her do this all the time. :)