see ya later summer

well im kind of glad thats over ... definitely not one of my better summers ... didn't do nearly enough camping, or hiking, NO fishing, market going and i still haven't been to the drive in. then of the course the whole boyfriend leaving for europe and dumping me once he got there...part of the reason was the move in the middle of the summer. busy packing, moving and unpacking. money was some what of an issue (as always) but what it really comes down to is i didn't have anyone to do shit with. i dont make new friends easily, and when you break up with someone there is the inevitable loss of social circle (not that we didn't typically organize most of the outings) i DID get to spend some time with a couple people i wanted to get to know better, but i think i can literally count the amount of times i went out on one hand. ive more or less stopped asking anyone to do anything...no one gets back to me and im not about to beg...so i'll hunker down for the fall, focus on my weightloss and exercise; our bootcamp is doing well and we're looking to expand into the winter if we can find a warm dry place to work out, and a running club is going to start up soon as well. i row for another month and once i can get finances sorted out i plan on renewing my Y membership. its been lonely but im not dead and i have great kids and i like where we're living and my job is alright...things could definitely be worse but i sure am glad they're not.

alright so im a day late

i've been really good about this from the very beginning but GODDAMN IT I MISS MY BOYFRIEND/BESTFRIEND/WORKOUT PARTNER/DRINKING BUDDY...even if he's not my boyfriend any more. still. i miss him.

ok thats out of my system.